When the holiday break came, I seized the opportunity and tried to get ahead of my studies. I spent my vacation days studying rather than hanging out with my friends. It was actually very sad. And to top it all of, I was within a diet so I hardly enjoyed the food during the holidays. However, my motivation was that it will be a great advantage for me when my midterms will come.
When January came, classes resume. I noticed some improvements as I was not haggardly dragged by numerous readings and cases due to the fact that already scanned them during the holidays. Nonetheless, there were some still unavoidable moments that I cannot answer a question regarding our topic. More doubt came to my mind when I saw a depressing grade in my recitation and paper works. After taking our criminal law exam, (which is probably a failure) the doubts of my capabilities rose.
It made me think whether I was actually better off doing my advance readings during the holiday break. From the economic theory's point of view, the answer would be in the positive. This is because, time, which is a valuable economic item, was used for reading and acquiring new knowledge. Empirically, I had an advantage. However, the question lingers, was my advantage in my further readings enough to persevere in my endeavors?
It's quite ironic actually. Being an optimistic person, it is very rare for me to think of such negative question. Probably, my doubts on my efforts are quite real than shallow.
Regardless, as Rizal once said, man has a divine spark and has a natural inclination to progress. Problems of doubt may come upon me, but later on, it will eventually pass. The lessons and struggles that I experience in my everyday life in the law educational system will contribute to my well-being. Needless to say, it's just a matter of striving harder and not letting the stones hit you hard. And I know I did my very best and utmost effort to be prepared in our midterms exam.
Always remember that nothing is impossible. As long as you strive hard and hope for the best, anything can be achieved. Problems may beset but it is for a momentary period. Diokno stated that what is important is not the achievement we accomplish but the eternal and relentless struggle for our goals.
I hope in our last exam later, I will have more lei way to be satisfied that all of my struggles are worth it. I believe the answer will be in the affirmative. It's really amazing how sleepiness and shallow moments can write an entirely new blog haha. Law school is truly making me a nerd.
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